thank you so much for all of the support. I am so excited...I feel so blessed. I thought that I had lost him forever...that maybe I would never have the chance to know him again.

Herc, I completely understand the jealousy thing. For years I have found it difficult to look at other people's families and not feel a bit of that. And I still do...I have 3 little girls out there who I can't contact for at least another 5years. It hurts to be seperated from your babies - whether they are 7 or 37.
Really, you make me feel doubly blessed - how easy it would have been for him to turn me down.

You know, I believe that people are sent to us for a reason (call it God, the Universe, fate...whatever you choose). And that is sort of how I feel about Jon. I have been looking for him and his dad for a while now (my best friend and I even did a couple of paid searches) and little turned up.

But about a month or so ago I was feeling depressed (lost 2 jobs and had 2 kids B-day's). I was talking to a neighbor and I asked what I was doing it all for.... why did I continue the fight, why did I get up and deal with the world everyday. I mean there were things in life that I enjoy and I could see having a happy life but I couldn't see it meaning much. I had this huge hole inside that just wouldn't heal. Now I have my answer.