Hi Nacatt, welcome to the forum. What you mention is nothing new to those of us with PTSD, and you should not be frightened of what you feel in regards to your anniversary, instead face it, don't fear it. PTSD feeds from fear, the very fear we uniquely create within our minds towards trauma. To be feared is to continue being ill, where to face your fear and stare your trauma down to where you no longer fear it, instead embrace it for what it was and that you have survived, you can beat this fear, not continue getting ill from it.

Our mental approach to beating PTSD is the majority of the battle, and the sooner you no longer fear your past, fear your trauma, the sooner you will see a more radical improvement within your own day to day being. Its a big step, and it doesn't change over-night, but it does happen within months of pulling apart your trauma, and coming to terms with what happened, beating the fear as such...