Thanks for the responses guys- its good to know that there are a few listening ears.
As odd as it sounds I think the headaches are filtering out at least some of the emotional and physical aspects of the trauma. When this started and throughout the last 2 1/2 years I literally feel this emotional/physical reservoir on the left side of my head with pressure to come out. I can feel a bit of this resesvoir release and travel from my left side of my head to the right. It stays on the right side for a while then falls away. Then more of the reservoir is released and the cycle repeats. The pressure I feel from the left is becomming weaker and weaker. As it becomes weaker I become more physically and emotionally more in touch with myself. I am literally 1000% better than before the headaches began (I was a real mess before, coudn't relate to others at all, anger and confidence issues, the whole nine yards... ).
I don't know how to explain it except I did read Peter Levine's book called Waking The Tiger: Healing Trauma and what he says seems to fit. He describes trauma as trapped energy- as the body's fight or flight response that has been trapped and needs to be released. Don't know if thats what is going on here but it sure feels like it is.
When the headache end I'm not sure what I will have to deal with- my wishful thinking hopes I will be healed but we we see. Maybe you guys are right, maybe they will not end until I work on stuff. I tried therapy, EMDR, other stuff and the only thing that seems to help is the passage of time. I think that they are slowing down however and there will be an end though. I would like to post again in a few months to record progress for myself and for others that may be experiencing this. |