:crybaby: I apologize for being such a sad sack around here....:frown: I had a letter returned to me marked in big red letters "Refused" and of course..."Return to sender".....I sent a note to my cousin [by marriage] explaining to her how it was my sicko sister who plagued them with some horrible calls this past last weekend in July.....the ones she thought that I made...she wouldn't listen to my explanation when I called her then to explain what happened and she told me never to call her again....I thought I would be able to reason with her via a letter....It NEVER got opened:crybaby: My ex-hub's family was the family that I felt truly a part of as my own is soooooscrewed up and dysfuncational....Now I've got nothing....This is just way too overwhelming!!!!! I keep bawling.....wish I had the gas to see my psychodoc tomorrow.....but that's not going to happen!!! I did move my June 9th appointment to Monday evening the 4th though....I am trying not to go off the deep end but this loss is so grievous that I just want to lay on the floor and let the heartbreak kill me if that were possible....I had spent my whole frickin' day back in the town I used to live in waiting for my AC in my van to be fixed and that didn't happen....They wanted me to leave it overnight but I had no other way home....so now I have to get up by 6AM again so they can have another go at it....I told them it better be done by 5 pm tomorrow as I have an appointment at 6 pm.....Then I drove home all hot hot hot I could barely stand it :boxem: !!! Then the returned letter in my mail..... if I can bear any more suffering.....