Thanks for that, do you think that it will help if i keep a diary on how im feeling from day to day, i have arranged some counceling sessions, but cant get to see anyone for 4 days, i thought i may start to feel myself by now but it isnt happening, lastnight i woke with cold sweats, i also have been having strange dreams, is this to do with what im going through, just want to feel my self again, i start back at work on Monday after a weeks holiday, im dreading it, i am a Manager, and i have the responsibility of nearly 60 people, im not sure how it will affect me, im realy concerned that it will affect my career and family,