Hi again.

Y&A, we should have a sleep competition! I had my drugs raised and I just can't stay awake, but I'm still getting attacks and mood swings so fat lot of good they are. I'm still very low about this friend that's just disappeared with no explanation. Your words were kind, Anthony, but I'm realistic that most men out there run a mile if a woman has 'issues' or BAGGAGE and I look fairly haggard from my years of drug crap and screaming and crying. This friend I'd made seemed such a good mix of qualities and common ground, I just feel weary at trying to get to know anyone again. I'm tired of being thrown away. I'm sick of being abandoned, and |I seem to specialise in the ones that cut me dead, leaving me bewildered as to why it happened.

I'm going to PM the Brits. I have so many common points with Sonrisa it's freaky. I just need to wake up a bit...