The worst thing about having been abused is that so many continue to blame me for what was done to me and do bad things to me justifying what they do by the actions of those that came before them.

It started when my mother was brutally assaulted by my father and then she got the bright idea that I would be better off with him. That was when I was 2 and still now she says "he said that he would kill me if I didn't give you to him and I am sure that you understand that he meant it." What I understand is that she is a piece of shit and that any judge in the Sixties, Seventies or whenever the **** ever would have incarcerated him if she had just told the truth.

But it doesn't end there... it seems like it never ends... judges, wives and the police think that if I really have suffered like I say I have then I must have done something to deserve it and throw their hand in.

Even my current wife (we are separated).