sorry i tryed to clean it up.

As one of you said I think to some extent it has to do with self-esteem. But there can be child instilled thought processes that may at time be useful and at other time not.

Everyone of us have issues that we have to deal with, we all ought to be having annual mental check ups. But PTSD just muddy the waters.

I love my wife with all my heart and i wish i could take the internal conflict away from her. Not because I could handle it any better. But it pains me so to watch her suffer. I do suffer with her being gone the old non useful feelings... insecurity, worry, will she still love me...etc.

I know she loves me, but as she says where did the intamicy go.....in my mind side effects of the PTSD, and or medication.

I have told her that PTSD happened to us. We are a team, I am You and You are me and we can work through this however long it takes.

I understand the needing to be away from the site of trauma, But its hard not to be there to give support. So i do the best i can from a distance. Sometimes im strong and do good, sometimes i am a weak suck puke and im not much help at all.

May God bless all of you in this battle with the comfort and peace that he can give you.