Batgirl - you rock. I love your posts and I only wish I could be as positive as you. I have been told by many here that they don't like my tone. And I will be the first to admit that I have developed a provocitave persona.

Since I excaped my father at the age of 14 my very goal in life was to just be normal and fit in. By the age of 22 I had alreadly fallen victim to several other abusers both male and female and I abandonded that as a goal. Now 11 years later I have honed my persona to that of a regular Eminem.

I admit that it is not working but 11 years is a long time and I only started learning about PTSD about a week ago. I am still very distrustful and confliced.

I am leaving this forum. Perhaps I'll come back when I can put on a good face but let me say this:

I won't need your help then. I didn't come her to help others I came here to help myself - IT MY JOB TO HELP OTHERS and on my free time I want to improve myself, I genuinely feel that while some of the posts on this forum were truely revealing and eye-opening that I don't want to be where some of you are.

So goodbye for now, and I wish you all the best even if you might not belive me. Let's hope I don't choose "Troll" as my next handle.