I have been out of the abusive situation for over a year now. Earlier this year I started to 'thaw out.' It was intense.

I want the overly intense emotions to stop, I want the paranoia switch to stop flipping...I want ALL the weird symptoms to stop flipping at will because of some obscure trigger.

I just want to be normal.

I just want to live a normal life.

I want to be able to trust again.

I want to be able to love someone and for someone to love me.