At this point, I still have a lot of questions and not many answers. Since everything was so good until the death of her ex, I know that her emotional state had everything to do with our breakup. We never had fights when we were physically together, everything unraveled because she was pulling herself away from me. And when we did talk, she would talk about huge amounts of pressure and issues flooding her mind. She would always tell me that I deserved better than her and that her problems were only making me upset. She told me she did love me and knows I was very good to her, but she was unable to feel anything and she was confused about everything. From what I was told by my shrink and what I've read about PTSD, she has a lot of the symptoms. She did witness her ex in coroner's van and this also took place in her daughter's school parking lot. Imagine if he didn't die when he did and her daughter got into the van with him when it happened. Also, a childhood friend of her's, who she just recently got back into contact with, died suddenly of a seizure only a few weeks before her ex's death. So I can understand she is going through a lot. I don't think she will ever come back to me or anything, but I hope she seeks help and I know I'd love for her to call me one day if she was able to cope with her issues.