Lee,
I read your post and it could have very well been my writing. I just want you to know that I think and feel the same way often. The spinning in circles and constantly kicking myself for not being able to snap out of it. One thing I have recently learned is that PTSD is not something you snap out of. But we can use tools to help calm us down when we get going with anxiety. One is to breathe. For some reason our breathing normally gets shallow and short which makes things worse. The second thing that really helps me is to focus on things I see immediately around me. The light, the telephone, the picture the....

The work stuff is really hard. Life goes on without us. Unfortunately, we need to de-stress ourselves as much as possible. What's hard is what I could do yesterday, now is filled with anxiety and fear. Just one day. it all changes.

I wish you the best my thoughts are with you. Keep sharing too.
Patty