Hi FD, sorry about taking so long to reply... had my own issues lately, so here goes:

You feel deceived and confused about life, and whilst you feel you are progressing well, you are likely finding life difficult. You have severe dysfunction when it comes to trust within intimacy, likely due to your past deception. You feel you would rather return to an ealier time in childhood to not deal with your poor support systems. You demonstrate a very low self esteem. You highly value commitment, though have been highly victimized by family in your past. Your largest issue at present is keeping your true feelings inside, though you know once you open up, the rest will flow out and will become easier to be more open. You see little future at present.