Thanks Nov Silence for caring & reading my post even though it hits close to home (I have a lot of trouble reading people's posts as well). I think my mother's been weighing on my mind more since she's in poor health (as am I) and also because I'm a mother now too & I just don't understand how you could be so cruel to your children and then completely forget. Well, like I said I did forgive her because she suffers from mental health issues too and I strive Not become her. It's just hard because it took so many years to forgive her & start our relationship again & reach that point where we could talk about anything. Now, it's like the past 15 years didn't even count & I don't want to rehash everything again with her. Oh well, at least I tried, that's all any of us can do... Take care.

P.S. If you read my diary, it's not a big long story. The only way I got through it was by listing events like I was writing a shopping list. I find it easier to do this or tell my therapist in this way so, my emotions don't overcome me because I don't know what would happen. Although, I know I need to do this sometime to start really healing!