Thanks Anthony for responding. I don't know which event is the worst. I have nightmares about being stalked, raped, beaten, & then some dreams are just so sad, I wake up crying & can hardly breathe. Sometimes when I'm walking, I feel the ground shake & can only assume it's some left over crap from the earthquakes I was in because no one else feels them. I see cars colliding with me on the highway (even though it's not really happening) & I've seen my grandfather walking by (even though he's been dead for years) but, I'll feel sick & vomit because he's one of the people who molested me. I honestly don't even know how to tackle these problems because there seems to be so many & they all affect me in some way or another. I don't even know where to start!