Hello Angel,

My brother-in-law says that just because you are paraniod doesn't mean there isn't somebody after you! That was his joking responce to my husband saying he's paranoid to let anybody know he's got guns. Any way, I agree with Portabella. Trust is a difficult thing for folks with PTSD. It is not uncommon to feel a lack of trust for others and in many ways its a safety issue IMHO. To feel safe with others many times it requires others to earn that trust before it is just given. That's not a bad thing as long as it doesn't get in the way of you being able to have friendships with other people. I know for a long time I kept all my friendships very superficial assuming that if I revealed my true self people would run. Well, instead of running from the real me they ran away from the fake me I pretended to be to protect myself from being hurt by others. I always had to make it look like everything was OK with me and that I was fine even if I was dying inside. People turned away from me, especially others with PTSD because all I presented was a fake self. Well, I'm a little better now. I'm still a little paranoid about going too far into my issues with others but I have come to learn over time that every other person on this forum is a sufferer of PTSD and has similar issues. There is no bad judgement but only pure understanding. I have learned that people just want me to be myself. If you have some paranoia going don't be too hard on yourself, we all experience it at one time or another and will continue to struggle with overcoming that part of ourselves. Hope you have some good days ahead. Take gentle care.
Marilyn S.