Forgot to mention, I put these in here to show that others are not alone in certain feelings. I hope certain lines make you feel a connection and that you are not alone.
When my anger hit me, it hit very hard. I stayed by a tiki bar where there were alot of veterans, and played music and just cried. At the time my brother was nearing his death, so I played music that matched where I was, and was protected so no one bothered me.
I was so skinny, my anger hit my stomach hard, and I walked everywhere for twenty mile stints just to get rid of alot of the adrenalin I had. I couldn't even look at myself in the mirror.
I would be just about ready to eat, and one tiny little thing would set me off, and it would be another 24 hours before I could try to eat again.
That's where I was, and its a hard road to go through, but having supportive people nearby helped so so much.
So forget all those that say "just get over it," "forget about the past",
we can't, and understand they will never understand where you are.
Anger is a huge part of ptsd, especially when you start to let emotions out.
That's what we did, stifled emotions, and boy they grow up strong and tall, so when we meet them again, bam!
All I can suggest is to vent your anger in a positive way, I walked and boxed on a 80 lb. punching bag. Yes, there were many faces on that bag, but it got out the adrenalin enough to walk a few more steps without exploding.