One social worker put it best, he asked, who's words are they?
Who spoke to you with those words? Who told you all those negatives things. For me, my mind kept hearing my mothers words.
It sounds like you are punishing yourself from someones words that are harboured in your mind. When you find out who's they are, living or dead, give them back.
Then give yourself a pat on the back, and say, "I'm doing well enough today to see I am having a bad day."
It's an everyday pat with a different saying for each day.
We should all live in the now, but tell that to me when my flashbacks bring me back to the sixties. Can't be done by me all the time. But I don't dwell on them, just when they raise their ugly little (gigantic) heads.
Give yourself a break,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,did ya catch anything while fishing?