Ok, mental issue, purely, and once again, one that you can spend thousands of dollars upon having a therapist attempt to tell you all these things, but at the end of the day, wasted money because the only person who can change your thinking style is yourself. So lets use an example, and I would love for you to give me one right back thanks... just so I know your on the same road.

Your using the "what if" thinking style, so then, tell me what if the sky where to fall in tomorrow, would you stop living life today? What if you had a phobia of a plane falling out of the sky, would you stop going outside or would you stop being inside so you can see the sky constantly? What if you got a phobia of a car hitting you, would it be realistic to stop going near anything with cars? If you did, you would be isolated to your house, and even that wouldn't stop a car driving into your house.

"What If" thinking styles only you can change, nobody else, and to do this you have to begin applying statistic facts, figures and commonsense. So what that your friend died of a fly larveu infection, does that really mean you are? No... it means they died of it, not you... as sad as the death is, it is not realistic, factual, nor commonsense for you to believe you are going to die of the same thing. They could have an immunity issue where the fly eggs got inside and their immune system could not kill the infection, etc etc etc... if someone jumps of a bridge, does it mean you will? No... but what if they did? Would you? No.... why?