June 2007 Part 2 Now you have had a break, go back to every question and look at your response. Try and find what you feel that your mind presented the image it did. Explain colours you chose, textures, water, cup, solids, liquids, space, objects, people, anything and everything that you wrote from your projected image, try and find what you feel to why you have that image. Don't look hard at things, instead try and look for the easy answers, as they are often the correct one's. Don't attempt to find something that isn't present, just look at each aspect for its absolute simplicity.
This is not an absolute, but something you must do in order to try and self analyse yourself. This is important. Please answer what you can, and simply define if you cannot find an emotion to a response you gave. The Road: My first thought is that there used to be a road there a long time ago, but it's deteriorated and overgrown, and needs to be rebuilt. The gravestones are a really common image which I have in my mind a lot, I assume because of all the death in my family. The wide open space and huge sky is because I feel really insecure right now. The grey-white sky I think is simply because I am living in Newfoundland now, and we have a lot of clouds and rain here. It's quite dreary. The River: The river is actually a marsh/pond, but it's a somewhat fresh marsh. I think that's just because it's been raining a lot here and we have fresh water on our land right now. I'm surprised I walked through the marsh, as in real life I'd be way too scared to do so... you never know what is in a marsh. All kinds of creatures and other gross things could be lurking. I think almost getting my head under water is based on an old fear I have of drowning in a marsh. The poison water is because marsh water is brackish and will make you sick if you drink it. The red-winged blackbird was my favourite bird as a kid. I was always super excited whenever I saw one. I also really liked cattails and lilypads. I always wanted to pick the yellow flowers off the lilypads, although I was scared to go into the water. The House: I don't really know about this, it just "feels right" to me that there is a new house being built but that it's not ready yet. It's still dangerous to get too close, but it feels "cleaner" somehow. All the tools and pieces are there just waiting to be utilized. Orange used to be my favourite colour, but it's also a construction site colour so I'm not sure what all the orange represents. The coffins and skeletons, I don't actually see any, I think I'm just worried I might see them because of everything that's happened to me in the past. The Cup: Not sure this makes any sense, but my first thought about the cup is that it's from around the same time I was born, maybe just slightly older than me, but it has seen close to the same number of years as I have. Maybe it belonged to my parents. Not sure why I'm afraid to touch it, I think I'm just worried about getting cut, especially since it's so dirty. I could get an infection. Orange used to be my favourite colour, before the shooting. The Obstacle: I think the memorial rocks are there again because there's been a lot of death in my family, although it's interesting to point out that I don't *completely* sense they are actual graves, like no strong feeling of dead bodies underneath them, but rather just memorials to people. They do still bother me, I think because I don't feel ready to deal with all the death just yet.
I've always liked lighthouses, I love exploring inside them, and they are a common theme in my dreams. I also draw them a fair bit. In real life, if I saw a lighthouse in the distance somewhere I would be very keen to get to it and explore it. I would be quite frustrated and disappointed if I couldn't for some reason.
The cliff is very steep and trecherous because I feel I have a long way to go still and that it's going to be very difficult. It's going to take a lot of strength and courage on my part. It doesn't seem impossible though, just very hard and dangerous. I need to be careful but I also need to work really hard. No one is around to belay me because I have to do it myself. |