SO, you 've learned everything your teacher has taught you, and you think having another teacher will make sharing your learnings more fulfilling?? We come into this world with a blank slate, eager to be taught. When we are ready, our teachers push us out of the nest to watch us fly. Are you ready to fly? God takes the teacher back to his realm after the lessons are learned, not before. You say that you are a Shaman, then you must see that. God and your teacher saw that you had learned enough to become the teacher and share your learnings with the world. I think I said this in another thread, but maybe you didn't see it or didn't think it pertained to you so here it is again, "When you've got one foot in yesterday and the other foot in tomorrow, you're pissing all over today". Today is where life is, it's also where you can be of service to others and pass your learnings on as they were passed to you, by Gods will. THAT is the meaning of life. Making the world a better place by helping the less fortunate. That is why God put a teacher into your life, because He saw that special spark in you. I believe the events that cause us to have PTSD are spiritual tests to determine if we've got a special niche in our heart that enables us to help others without expecting anything in return, a teachers heart. When I first answered one of your posts, I commented on 'Billy Jack'. I got you to laugh, which was my intent, but also to share a secret that we both know, even tho you felt the need to tell me Tom Laughlin was just an actor, but 'Billy Jack' was real. Every just cause in this world has it's villians, But God always balances the scales with a 'teacher', or 'Champion' or 'Billy Jack'. All three have the same meaning, they are here as a stopgap against chaos, which is anti-God. As for being alone, you should know different, if you really feel that way, read 'Footprints' , and remember that God is ALWAYS with you, unless you choose to shut Him out. I know that you know all this already, sometimes we need to hear it again to know that it's true.
My teacher is with God now, too. I guess it's been about two years for me, also. He made sure I understood the important lessons that needed to be passed on. Two that come to mind are, the real definition of insanity and what Love really is and how it works. You'll never, ever hear either of them described as truthfully as I've learned them, because, at that time in my life, my life or death was hanging in the balance. I don't push what I've learned on people, neither do I withold it if someone is ready to believe. That's the teacher's role that has been put upon me to pass on. If I shirk my responsibility, God isn't gonna think less of me, but maybe an important lesson will be lost forever. Is your responsibility to pass on your knowledge less? I don't think so. We cannot transmit something that we have not learned.
Most people talk to God, but then they do not stop and listen for God's answer. I think we have both learned how to listen, and that gives us more responsibility to help others when we can. Do you agree, or do you still think you need someone to guide you, besides God? Your teacher seemed to think you were ready, are you?
Respectfully,
WarHippy1%