I played horrible games with my first husband. I actually felt justified as he did not treat me the best, but as life has progressed I realize it was not as bad as I thought it was at the time. The worst thing I ever did to him was sell his car without his permission. I was 18 and he had a red corvette that he adored. He would wax and wipe it. Kept it in the garage, loved the car alot more than me I am convinced. Well, I ran an ad and sold it for $6000. I was in mint condition, candy apple red, louvers, sidepipes, window etching of strawberries and roses, button tufted leather seats, mag wheels, and had all the extra's. It sold in a day and he was ready to kill me, I really did not understand what I did that was so bad at the time, now.....I am amazed I am alive.

My second husband Paul (11 1/2) years of marriage, he would always tell me that he would kill me before I would ever leave him. I am going to zip through but I left him and took the kids. I will tell more in my diary about all the violence that ensued during the break up, but....during the second restraining order hearing (being amended) he brought a rose, he had always bought me a rose for birthday, mother's day, Christmas, it was kind of his thing. Well, here we are in Judges chambers, sheriffs officers and victims advocate present in case of trouble (violence) and he hands me a rose. The judge was floored. I left the rose on my seat as I left that day and was escorted to my residence by sheriff dept. Later, as I was to serve him with divorce papers he beat me to it by a day and had me served so the venue would be in Linn County Iowa instead of Colorado. He kept continuing the case and was standing strong on the fact that he would not let me go. Then I drove to Iowa, I was excited as he had not continued the case and when I got there I was told in the courtroom that they were sorry but his lawyer had continued last minute as he was out of town on business. I was pissed to say the least. When I got to my car there was a single rose on my car seat. Scared the crap out of me. So I re upped the restraining order in Colorado, as I took that as a threat. I also wrote the judge and told him that by him continuing the case over and over (had been 2 years) he was holding me captive. The judge actually granted the divorce the next hearing even though neither of us were there.

I have not spoken to him for many years and had the great honor (bleh) of speaking with him as he called me at work about 2 years ago. The venom is still in his voice, we have been split for literally 13 years now and the hate is thick in his voice. I still watch my back as I trust this will never be over. I believe he is the ultimate in mind games.