ok, so right after I wrote that I had a nice size panic attack, it had nothing to do with the posting and more to do with a flashback that I had that day. I haven't had a flashback in sometime and it kinda took me by surprise and the panic followed. I was on here trying to write about something to take my mind off of it hoping it would go away. Eventually I had to give into it, let it happen, do my breathing and calm down, then it was gone, about 20 mins. in all. The good thing is I got through it pretty much on my own and it was only 1 attack, no others followed. While i hated that it happened I have to give myself credit for being able to take care of it, a year ago I couldn't have done that.