Thanks Monarch and dljwhitewolf.

Good to know that others have the same opinion too, that he doesn't need to know the full details, but definitely he needs to know and understand that the trauma that I went through and how it is still affecting me.


Maybe it wasn't his intention at all. Maybe I misunderstoond as he never talk about this other than when I am struggling with myself after a trigger. A number of times during my bad moments, he did air his frustration on having to have to guess his head out, what was freaking me out during a trigger. He felt so lost and worried seeing me struggling alone with my deep emotions and revolving in a very distressing self, and he felt helpless when he is not sure, how he should be of any help to me other than to just hold me without saying a word for hours. But in my honest opinion, he being there just to hold me and let me have the emotions all to myself is the best comfort for me during a bad trigger.

Certainly, I'll have to be frank with him that I will never be comfortable enough to tell him details of the assault and by sharing every details will not do me any good except making me worst (hopefully not). Anyway he has been doing me great help already all this while by just holding me, because it does make me more secure and comfortable in his supportive presence. Hopefully by telling him this, he will not press me to speak out anymore.