You're definitely not alone in this. Trauma leaves us speechless and numb--so a big part of therapy is putting the experience back into words and getting the feelings to come back in relation to it. I suspect that the more you talk about it and go over it, the more the feelings will return.
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i've been told that if i can't do this maybe it's my brain saying i'm not ready to handle them, basically either start feeling or stop sessions because they're not going anywhere.
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Is this your own ultimatum or your therapist's?
I found that I had to spend many, many session talking around the trauma before I was actually able to address it (which I'm still doing). Those weren't wasted sessions--I had to build up trust in my counselor and identify what was keeping me from speaking/feeling so that we could find ways around it. The process of coming to speak about it is as much of the recovery as the actual speaking, I think.
Just my ideas--hopefully you'll get other points of view on this, too.