Angel, what your experiencing is nothing out of the normal bounds of PTSD, absolutely and perfectly normal for uncontrolled PTSD. So then, the question your asking really, is how does one become "normal" again. Well, we have beaten the "what is normal" discussion to death here before, so just search and you will find, however; normal is unique to you, and not a society blanket or peer group that you may think it is.

What you need to know, is that you will never be the same as you ever where, and that you must expect, though you can be better than you are, likely you will know more about yourself than you ever have. You must face your fear, you must face your trauma, you must not fear it. Fear is what causes PTSD to thrive, to fear is to feed PTSD. To feed PTSD is to invoke all the symptoms. To hit your fear directly, to hit it as fast as possible, is to see a dramatic increase in sickness initially, to then taper off over the following months to a much lower level than you live daily. The more you work on you, the less symptoms will be within your life. Symptoms are a side effect of your trauma, and the only way to remove the symptoms is to heal your trauma.