I am trying right now for here and now to realize it is just my mind (unconscious) and body recalling the past. It is still a hard ride and having panic attacks but I think I am in a better place this round. Not in ER!

Hubs has been good at telling me this is my mind taking over and let it go with it. I am trying to go with the flow. Not easy but so far not as bad. Just insomnia, nightmares, and a few panic attacks though anxiety is non stop. But that is still a lot better than the last couple summers!