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Originally Posted by secretstars wildfire,
i hate the mental health system in the US. it is SO FREAKING RIDICULOUS!!! i've had similar experiences in ER wards for various mental things. i swear to god, they need IQ tests for some of these workers. and i totally understand the psych ward traumatizing you. the mental hospital i was at traumatized me, too. i hope you'll start feeling better soon. that is such an awful experience. get some real sleep!! :) |
I did get :sleep: yay!!!! I was in bed by 11:15 pm....alarm went off at 7am...wanted to go to 9am Mass....wasn't quite sure about the effects of rozerum....if I would get drowsy while driving there or coming home...was awake for 45 minutes..got really drowsy[would have been on the road if I had gone to Mass]...anyway I went back to bed and slept til 3pm....still weepy...but much less agitated...had a bad dream but I didn't wake up terrified...GREAT!!! I sooooooooo much appreciate your support!!
I have one hospital that I feel safe going to...almost 2 hour drive east of here...I don't like the fact that I have to go so far to avoid further TRAUMA....but at least I have that option!!! I have driven myself up there because if I go to any ER presenting "mental" problems I lose all rights to where I want to be admitted if that is necessary....I feel it is so unfair that an ER doctor or this Center has more rights to determine my medical future than I do....They are so backward in their knowledge of PTSD and of course they aren't going to believe what I tell them about it....and what symptoms I am showing they haven't a clue to understand let alone have the willingness to be compassionate towards me....:gunem-dow You know I feel that those of us who are :angry-fla with our mistreatment need to band together to try to change the system....It takes a lot of courage for any of us to do that....all that I know is that I can't do it alone!!! We are so scattered from each other location wise....it's hard to band together...I am going to try to connect once again with our local NAMI chapter to be an advocate for better treatment for us in ERs!!! I tried several months ago...but with physical problems resulting from vehicle accident early this year I was a bit hampered...I think that's a good goal for me today...find out where and time of next meeting....get myself back to the state of "I have a voice and I will not be SILENT"...I AM NOT GOING TO TAKE IT ANYMORE!!! I don't know where I get this courage...I think it has to do with having turned 50 and being so painfully aware that there are so many like like me who have sufferred are getting the same mistreatment as I have!!! I know for certain that groups can get things done more than one individual can....but each group begins with one person!!! I don't know what my future holds...I need to keep moving forward whenever I can find even the smallest bit of energy/courage..even if I am just putting one big toe forward of my other big toe!!! I think I need to take time now and do something for my self nourishment....ART!!!....I'm working on a paper mache goofy looking dinosaur...It already has the goofy look to his face and he's not even "plastered" yet!!! PEACE to ALL!!!!! ....wildfirewildone