Man oh man am I screwed up today. I couldn't sleep last night, apparently I did because my husband said I was criing in my sleep...I am neasous to the point of throwing up, criing out of the blue, shakes, anxiety through the roof - it's like full blown PTSD all over again. Thank you Marlene, batgirl and ww for your replies. Right now, they are the support and kindness that are getting me through so I can be here for my girls, and not on the hunt.