Hmmm... First of all, I will preobably need a dictionary to understand that all completely. The language is pretty I would say strange.
Well, I see something right and something wrong (for example, do not remember any negative experience form intimacy). Did not understand which "support systems"you mean, and what is ***showing a fluttering thought towards someone or something alcoholic surrounding past commitment. ***
No, I am not pessimisyic about my future, but I realize that if you came here without a penny in your packet you have to make everything yourself, and that requires you to attack your life and your future. Pf course, if you dpo not want to live among subhumans.