I don't want to be a nuisance in my first week here, but I think I undersand where the OP is coming from. What do we mean by "better" anyway?

Functional? Under control? Sure, I want that.

Normal? I don't think that's possible. Even if it were, would I want it? I'm not sure I would. I honestly think I see the world more completely than other people, and that I've been innolulated agaist fear for the rest of my life.