Sounds pretty normal. I hated feeling like I did and still do at times healing. It is hard and Lord it sucks. I am still healing, I have months I maintain but at other times I am relearning to heal.

Just follow the treatment here to heal. The info section if you utilize it will move you on. You can get better. It takes forever it seems, but when you look back and you see what you have weathered healing and you have so many more good days than bad one day... You see it was worth all that pain to get there.

You don't notice right off, it takes a damn long time. But this forum will be here for those storms. That I know.