Bec I am so sorry to learn of your loss. I have been wrapped up in my own life and failed to notice your pain. The old adage of time heals all wounds does not cover this.. My heart breaks for you. The many stages of grieving are still ahead of you but with god's help and all the friends you have here in out forum you WILL come out of this.
While you never stop feeling the loss, you do finally get to a point where the good memories and happy times take over and the pain finally fades into the background.
If any of us can help you by listening and simply being around just let us know. You know we will do what we can to help
I can't feel you pain but I can share your tears.
HERC