OK, here goes, any advice would be appreciated. I have been doing cognitive behaviour therapy and exposure therapy (have had about 35 sessions) Now, i still have about 20 sessions that have already been approved by criminal injuries.
This is the problem, i don't want to go anymore but I don't know it this is just avoidance or if I really am done.
When i started therapy i was not even safe to drive as I was having intense flashbacks, vomiting etc.
Now, i am able to drive but I have a lot of physical symptoms ( also have my criminal injuries hearing next week) so my symptoms are worse right now but I am able to see outside the bubble and know that once next week is over they will subside again.
i have been running for years literally and i don't know whether this is what I am doing again or if maybe I just need a break. The sessions are awful, emotional and I feel like i am zoning out now. I just don't know if I should continue or wait. I know I avoid, avoid, avoid. i don't know if this is what I am doing or if it is really ok to just leave it. I want to be done with this but I am not sure if stopping my therapy will prolong things or make me feel a bit better. At this point i feel like it is keeping me stuck in a past that just won't let go. But, if i stop and then re-start will it just prolong this?
i am just so confused.........Any input would be appreciated.
Thank you everyone for taking the time to read this.
pandora