Sorry to keep answering your posts. But....I get bags on my bags during my insomnia cycles, nightmare times. I have been told that when I am PTSDing hard that I look different (mean, pursed lips, small mean eyes) and that I act different (irritable, irrational at times (hate to admit it), immature, volitile, and quick to be ready for violence) I used to act on it, but now take a time out and baste alone in my misery as I say and do things I regret. I guess you could say that you are a different person when its hitting hard. It is good that you recognize that, now to learn to get a leash on it. That is the trick. Best of luck to you and we are here for you, that helps me so much having this forum, cannot stress that enough.