So, I get on the forum today and I am reading and learning as usual. I got triggered by some of what I read today and I feel anxious and hurt. I feel this is compounded by my apprehension of my upcoming trip and surgery. I know this sounds dumb as I am a tough old bird, but the thought of having a pin placed into my arm and my wrist put back in place while totally awake scares me. Oh well.....cannot afford the hospital or the anesthesiologist so....will go the cheap way. I think a break from the forum may be a good idea as I am getting heavily effected at this time. I am also worried as a friend of mine with PTSD is in the hospital again, "stabilization unit" and I am hoping to speak with her prior to leaving for my trip. I am still missing my cat dreadfully and it really breaks me up. I know this cannot be compared to the loss of a child, since I have suffered the loss of a child at 8 years old I would know that. However, after having Puss Puss for 18 years this is still taking an effect on me heavily, effecting my whole family in fact.