Hello Cleardawn66!

It sounds like you've come a hell of a long way in your recovery. Yes, facing up to the memories is like facing a wall of pain, but you have shown great courgae in doing just that. You have to work through what happened, to process it. But you know that. You're doing great already. It's good you've got support and even better that you really feel you're in a safe place. This site is a safe place too. Welcome!