Hello all,

Reading through Anthony's comments about making yourself well are very apposite. I sometimes feel very self-indulgent and even selfish, but it's hard work retraining my brain and I have difficulty reminding myself that. I can't throw myself at the world the way healthy people can because I get ill and exhausted. I just don't have the resources yet.

My drugs are making me very sleepy and I hate not feeling productive. I've hardly done any art work this summer and feel a fraud. I spend the evenings on my other, local forum. I feel that I am making friends there, but I do come across as odd and intimidating, just because my 'normal' doesn't fit with other people's 'normal'. I've decided to be frank and unashamed of having my problems on this other forum, while remaining civil of course, and it appears to discomfort a lot of people. Sometimes emotive subjects come up and I find myself kindling and churning up with anger just before I go to bed which is not best practice! I also fret and get extremely panicky whenever someone disagrees with me. I'm far too sensitive about it, and suddenly I'm being threatened with death by my mother! It's like time travel sometimes, this flashback thing.

Hope everyone else is sleeping well, round the globe. (I still can't get my head round the time differences and clock. Can we have several clocks on the site, you know, New York, London, Tokyo kind of thing?!)