Oh Pandora, hang in there. This has got to be so very hard. But I'm so glad your psychologist will be there with you tomorrow. You're right, just remember that you are doing this so he can't hurt you and anyone else again. This takes a lot of courage and you have it! And yes, take your ativan with you, that will help, too. Re: the drive - is it possible for you to take a cab or a bus? Take care, dear.