Ok Evie, I have broken this down into sections so you can see briefly how your life has progressed, though will mention some aspects for you to help give your sub-conscious a little triggering. I have numbered them according to the order of your doing them. I am not going to be overtly specific, though enough for you to see your progression from then to now.

How You Perceive Life in General

#1. Confused, highly emotional and sadness overhead. Life is that challenging you constantly think death is an easier solution than life.
#2. Sadness predominates, highly emotional and confused from the death you believe surrounds you.
#3. Healthy and vigorous though still feeling life depreciates you at times. Progressing well though aware of the pain surrounding you. Death no longer surrounds you, but is more in your vision, though now scares you.

How You Look at Sexual Intimacy

#1. Severly distrusting, absolute sadness with stagnant intimacy. Aware of problems and would rather be dead than intimate.
#2. Distrusting, absolute sadness with stagnant intimacy. Aware of problems and would rather be dead than intimate.
#3. Trusting though feeling deceived, likely due to wanting intimacy but not sure whether someone wants you, or possibly feeling like you have been ripped off with intimacy because of trauma. Stagnant though aware of the problems.

Your Support Systems

#1. Highly confused from death surrounding your support systems, aware of these issues, likely feel abandoned emotionally which directly contributes to your poor self esteem.
#2. Highly confused from death surrounding your support systems, aware of these issues, likely feel abandoned emotionally which directly contributes to your poor self esteem.
#3. Feeling unknown, possibly still a little confused, likely believing the rug of support could be pulled from you at any moment, optimistic about having support within your life once again, like its being rebuilt, though still have a poor self esteem.

Commitment Towards Others

#1. Highly emotional, feeling off victimization from commitment predominates from a family member.
#2. Confused, feel victimized from commitment, deceived even.
#3. Desire to return to an earlier time, moderately value commitment, still feeling depreciated from commitment, though are committed to someone or something less than totally honest.

Largest Issues and Feelings

#1. Coming to terms with your fathers and brothers death, your fathers actions. You see death a more viable option of a future.
#2. Coming to terms and dealing with your families deaths, your fathers actions. You feel a huge climb in order to see a future.
#3. Dealing with the deaths of your family, understanding the pain associated surrounding their deaths. You still feel a long climb in order to see your future, though you hold optimism.