In an abusive relationship, your brain shuts down your emotions, then shuts down your gut to survive. For some, once their gut is shut down, they get hit every day and never leave, and even die. Thank God my gut was still working to some degree, enough to get us out.

When my gut thawed out, it was like a dam broke loose, and I figured that eventually the waters would calm down, and things would balance out.

Ex was a pathological liar. It took a lot of pain and stress and work to get to the point that I could feel like I could trust anyone again, that anyone was trustWORTHY. A recent situation started to get weird, and I didn't listen to my gut. I just figured that it was overreacting...that it hadn't settled down enough to be reliable, that I was experiencing some paranoia related to ptsd or something. (I posted a thread about paranoia.) Recently, I realized that everything my gut was telling me about the situation, most likely is true.

Ex prided himself on how 'honest' he was. You know what the worst part about it is??? Same story all over again with this recent situation...total 'honesty.' And I fell for it again. What is wrong with me?

I am not in a good place right now.