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Originally Posted by Anthony It is like YA being a super moderator here. She is by no means at 95% running, and she doesn't say she is, and is honest about her current state, yet she helps out in an indirect way by helping me moderate this forum, but has no actual commitment placed upon her by myself to do anything. If she feels well enough, she helps, if not, she looks after her first. She is helping in an indirect method, and has escape to heal herself at all times. |
And wow do I need that "escape" sometimes!
Somedays I just need to crawl under a rock and hide from all responsibilities!
The fact that I don't have a "commitment" to doing a certain thing at a certain time (aka: posting, moderating, replying) takes all the pressure off of helping.
Some days I feel like I could start a big support group...
...other days taking care of myself is a huge chore.
So I agree with Anthony that a person has to be at least 95% better before they should take on big commitments.
Funny this topic came up actually...
'cause my last couple of days have been sh*t
When I talked to the surgeon last week I was devastated to find out that the pain I'm experiencing is probally bone and nerve damage... the sugery isn't even going to give pain relief....
...this pain is forever.
As brave as I'm trying to be (couldn't even post the devasting news 'til now)
I don't know if I'm strong enough to deal with this physical pain for the rest of my life.
I am already on pain medication (for nerve pain) and it just barely dulls the ache and shooting pain.
And it wouldn't be so bad if the pain came and went... I might be a happier person if it did.
But it's a constant... constant hell.
Honestly I'm confused... what do I do?
The only thing that kept me motivated through the pain was the fact that sugery might possibly relieve it.
Now that I know this is something I am going to have to deal with for the rest of my life... I just want to go to the doc and request a life-time prescription for morphine...