Hey guys, I am glad I found this community. Maybe someone can give me some insight into what is going on with me. Any ideas, or thoughts would be very much appreciated. So here I go - about a week ago, I had a pretty long day at work, and decided to drive down to the beach for a surf right after work. I get to a popular spot, and there is quite a few people out in the water. So I head out, and notice more of the aggressive types are out in the water (surfers who think they own a spot just b/c they surf well.) So this one guy gets right in my way, and shouts "hey!" at me before I take off on a wave. He doesn't even make the effort to get out of the way. So when it comes time for the same guy to take off on a wave, I do the same thing right back at him. I didn't even know what I did, I just reacted. So he starts yelling all sorts of expletives at me as he passes by. Then he comes back telling me "I am not the guy you want to be messing with!" So what is troubling about the whole situation is that I just shut down, I don't even counter his comments. I just felt hollow, not scared, but just not willing to deal with the situation. Thus, I end up really beating myself up about it and head back to the beach. In my mind I thought I would react with anger, but I just shyed away. It really shook the foundation of who I am, and what I thought about myself. So ever since the event, I have been repeating it over and over in my mind. My stomach is constantly burning. And whenever I think back to that day, I just get hit with a wave of emotions. It hasn't really totally encapacitated me, but it is taking its toll on me. I haven't been in a physical fight since grade school, and I don't go looking for them either. I am generally a peaceful person, but jerk out in the water just pushed all of my buttons on a bad day. So I am worried about how long is this trauma going to stay with me. What is making it worse is my OCD, and overall high anxiety that I have had for about 10 years. All I want at this point is to move on from this, and to get back to feeling like myself again. All I am doing right now is Please help, any input, advice, encouragement would greatly be appreciated!