Monica, have you ever read Unhelpful Thinking Styles? If not, maybe you need to. Excellent trait that you do take responsibility for yourself though, because there is more to that than you think, in that a lot of people who sit in self sympathy don't, which says your not wanting sympathy, which is proved outwards as simply saying; I am not in denial, I am progressing through my pain. This is actually quite excellent Mon, and very well done to you. Maybe at times your not giving yourself enough credit for the things you do, regardless how large or small?