Hope, eve, Lisa...thanks so much for your responses. Knowing that I'm not alone with this helps so much. And the kind words. Sometimes after a rough day reading kind words is the best balm.
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People think I am cool and nothing much phases me... or that I am cold. Oh I do feel... just not when I should! On the other side of the coin, fear and those reactions that come with it are ever hypervigilant in me, so I don't seem to have a happy medium!
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I know this feeling quite well. That people think I'm cold because I don't give them the responses they want, I guess. Also I totally ignore negative people to the point that I don't even acknowledge their existence. This is something I need to do for myself but it also adds to my reputation for being remote and aloof. And when I'm feeling bad I keep to myself (especially at work). I figure since I'll never please everyone, I'll work on pleasing myself for a change and not care about what others think.
But like Lisa said, the other side of the coin is emotions that can overwhelm you very quickly. Fear, anxiety and all of the stuff that goes along with that. I hope one day that there is a happy medium and a balance to all of this.