Hello Anthony, what do you mean by 'sexual preoccupation'? I dont feel it and I'm very untrusting with intimacy in the physical sense but ok in the emotional sense. Do you mean I feel deceived by a former partner or any male figure in my life? Boy, this is confusing! Yes, I feel confusion in my life that's certainly true! Yes, I have a problem with commitment. Commitment in a relationship is very difficult for me. Not that I want to cheat on someone, more like I dont want to be owned by them or controlled. I know where that's from I think. Its from my relationship with my Dad.

The obstacle in the road is a boulder not a wall. There's not another in the road. Do you mean the river?