Hey bec, Thank you for your much for your response !

Ya', I hear you. How true that others not only speak of (Us) the PTSD sufferer, as the one who too often others must walk upon eggshells around, but too often it is true.

However, most definately, I too have observed these very same feelings and reactions within my children around their Dad. And, have certainly felt the fear, anxiety and nervousness of it all myself around him. Not all the time, but the real kick' in the butt is that I never know when, why or for how long.

Oh' and he has complained of the same thing about me. I've seen his anxiety of my edginess (and it all) in him before. And, I've noticed that he has struggled with himself to behave a certain way and/or, give me a break when I am too overwhelmed or irritable.

That is half the time and the other half the time, he doesn't seem to budge, or is so tense that I might be very calm until he has us all walking on eggshells.

Confusing......confusing........confusing......and all of it could and sometimes does, too easily escalate into ridiculous conflicts. Which when he's uptight, he seems to welcome with open arms. I mean he doesn't even try to avoid conflict when he's had it with exhaustion and frustration.

And, it would be an error to presume that bc I have PTSD that his exhaustion and frustration is do to me. There is so, so, so much more to the real deal story, that would disallow simply excusing his 'stuff' away by presuming it's all the result of my PTSD.

Anyhow, It was a good challenging day today. Our children had a very good and exciting time at the parade. And, we saw a great display of fireworks too.

This is really not any harsh complaint about my husband as he cares and loves all of us and is self-reliantly struggling to improve and does. And, I am improving too. I only wish he'd approach making his improvements with some help, support, friends, guidance or anyone other than just relying upon himself.

If I could wish one thing in this world, at this moment, it would be that my husb. could and would ever ask someone, somewhere for help.

Hope