That is precisely what I mean. It isn't about saying your not capable of doing something, because you are; it is more about saying, are you capable right now? In twelve months time wildfire, you could have healed yourself enough that you can then dedicate yourself to truly helping others, without the personal torment and symptoms jumping you when you talk with others who are still suffering the worst of PTSD. That alone is something you would need to be capable of handling, like water of a ducks back, so to speak, were you listen, you process, and you understand and provide advice / experience, but you don't take it within yourself and then make it your trauma. If something hits too close to home, often we will absorb some of the effect, hence why the symptom outbreak. You first, then others.

I think maybe its just called PTSD!!! What you describe wildfire is exactly what PTSD is during its worst, when symptoms are out of control, you don't know where to start, or which symptom to choose to begin trying to recover. The answer to that last bit, is you don't! You start at the trauma, and then the symptoms will dissipate to a lower level, at which time you then begin picking them off one by one and learning to control the residual effects.

I think you need to just give yourself a little you time for a while wildfire. Stay within your safety zones, stay within your safe limits, become a bit more at ease within yourself first, then tackle your trauma.