Ok Anthony. I just dont know what you are talking about really. I wouldn't say I was sexually preoccupied at all. I cant think of anything that that might refer to.

With the male figure how do I know if its my Dad or not? If its the sub-conscious mind how do I know if the conscious mind is working it out correctly or not? You say only I can know, but what if I dont?

If there is another obstacle its puddles of water. The road is broken up and has big holes in it with muddy rainwater in them.

Not sure I want to know what you make of this?! I'm just more confused. I know my relationship with my Dad is a problem which is something I've discovered in therapy. Its the reason I do the things I do and try and be independent and brave all the time.