They are not really secret I just dont feel comfortable in putting the reasons regarding the water fear on an open to the public forum. I saw and lived through things that dont belong on an open forum . .
On sexual secrets those are pre 18 years old . By then I saw any sexual behavior ( or affection) by other people as perverted behavior. So avoided all aspects of sex and anything related to that once I escaped from home.
Celibacy is much more peaceful.